Missing My Mum

Today is the day that i feel like wanting
to cry
Because thinking so hard and so long
like this night wouldn't end until i
die
Thinking of My Mum really hard makes
me want to cry but then keeping it inside
because ever one will here me.
People would be asking me
"What's wrong?"
i wouldn't want to answer them
wanting to cry so bad
and thinking what would i do
in the future
everything is going so fast that
i can't even keep track of time
like it was just yesterday she was here
i miss the way she smiles and the way she laughs
every once in a while i think of her
and wishing to see her again
but i will some day, it could take weeks, months, or years
i use to dream of her
but then i don't know what happened
maybe things need to be moved on
i want to cry so bad, i finally think of her for so long
i forgot when was the last time i saw her
man i can't remember
all i remember was when she babysat us and
when we were playing cards
so when ever i play cards i would think of her
i think i've gone to far
just wanted to write this all down
crying so hard, i can't keep it in much longer
i must take it out
also thinking of others who passed away

Long ago

Long ago i used to be a bad girl but not really bad. I saw this on our home videos. It was funny when i saw myself doing stuff. I'll tell you just a little bit about it.
During Christmas maybe when i was about how many months, my mom and us three older kids slept at my grandma's for Christmas. My older sister and brother which is Bunna and Andrew, they were opening their presents. I was on the couch just sitting there and looking. It went to the part where Andrew was reading his book about Christmas. Then it went to the part where i was on my car-aaruaq and Andrew was pushing me and qinguqestaaq-ing me. Then it went to the part where i had Andrew's candy and i think i thought it was mine because it looked like it. He tried to get the candy from me but then i wouldn't let him have it. Then Andrew finally got it from me and i started crying i think. I didn't watch in a long time so yeah i think i need to watch it again.
I also remember playing with matches and knives when i was like around 7-10, somewhere around there. Well anyways i remember playing with matches and i would have maybe two of my friend with me and then we went by the old store and there was a couple little houses maybe two. There was a little house and there was couple things in there and we found a metal thing and put grass in it and started a fire but then i got scared and said " Get water! Hurry!" then we took it out and tried to build another one but then it didn't work, so we went in the woods and then there was a couple of kids. They had the matches then someone came down to where we were and said to me that their mom told my mom that i was playing with matches and i think i got mad or something i can't remember. But then i was afraid to go home. So yeah that all i remember.
Even playing with a knife, i was with my friend and told her i could do this, and i showed her but then i ended up cutting my self in between my big toe and the little toe because i didn't have any shoes on and it was by the deck. I also have a scar and i thought i did something to it but then i remembered i played with a knife. It was when we had those bars and the monkey bars. Holy cow i wish we had those still.
Thats all i remember when i was growing up, but then i will try remember more later.

Lost and Found

I was lost somewhere being followed
by someone. Who knows what it is, might
be my shadow, might be the spirits,
what would it be. What kind of thing
would chase me out of this village,
What can it be?
Going anywhere, I don't even know the
woods that much. What will stop the
thing from chasing me. What can i do?
I think i need help.
You know what that thing was?
IT WAS YOU!
There i am found at last, you can stop
running now.

Who I Am

My name is Stephanie Jackie Joekay
my friends and family call me by my nickname
Jackie. You can call me Jackie if you like.

I have Three brothers and Two sisters. In order is
goes girl, boy, girl, boy, boy, then girl. I am the third
child. My older sister is hopefully going to graduate this
year.

My favorite sport is N.Y.O. I don't know about
basketball. My favorite event in N.Y.O is seal hop.
What i like about N.Y.O is i like doing the events,
but high school is different from Jr. High.

I am thinking of going to college after i graduate from
High school. I was hoping i would know what i want
to be, but then i didn't figure it out yet.